im so addicted to all the things you do.

laying on the couch watching pearl harbor. im missing my boyfriend so muchhh. at least summer is almost here [: thankk goodness. my summer is gonna disappear so fast though, right into senior year.
this next week i have an interview to be an ambassador for quintana photography. then friday to monday ill be in san antonio. the next thursday ill be at chelseys lake house,
shortly after:
i have conners bday to prepare for, then goddard, my pal retreat at the end of july and spending what time i got with that boy <3.
then august is here..
i have practice almost everyyday in august..then school is here. summer will be gone. im gonna live up every minute i got, do what i can [: good night. last full day of school tomro.

this beat is sick.

ughh. i feel so sick.
i have felt sick all day.
terrrrrible. not good. so i stayed home. then i had to get readdy for graduation tonight, which was long. and i still felt bad :/
blehh. and i miss conner reallly really bad. i hope i see him saturday. or sooner [:
i love you conner <3. alot more than you know

i hate jealousy.

i hate when i get jealous.
especially over things that dont matter anymore.
i just think of old things..and it i feel hurt.
not bc anyone did anything to me..
just bc thats how lame i get over stupid, nonexistent things.
ughh i wish after a certain amount of time..
and changes in ppl..
that certain writings on the internet could disappear.
gahh. i hate that i let this bother me when it shouldnt.
im so stupid. ughhh.
im gonna try and get some sleep..maybe..

good night.

theres a stirring deep within me.

so boys are just geniuses and think theyre soo funny. i forgot to log off my facebook from when i was at conner's earlier..so when i get home. he is on my facebook.

AND TO ALL THOSE THAT DIDNT KNOW YOU COULD BE ON FBOOK ON TWO DIFFERENT COMPUTERS...YOU'RE WRONGG.

because i argued with him and my friends bc he was instant messaging them and so was i.my friends were veryy confused.
i have to work tomro and friday. then project saturday morning and banquet that night [: conner's senior service at church sunday..hopefully i dont cry. im gonna try not to..the thought of him leaving me and going to college scares me. ill miss him too much :/ i love you conner. thanks for an AMAZiNG night tonight. cant wait til saturday [:

i cant help falling in love with you.

so i was taking a survey earlier and i got asked the question. What did you realize today?
and i said that i am completely in love with this boy.
Now it's not that i didn't know i love him, because i do love him sooooo much, but after spending a whole day getting ready for his prom trying my best to look beautiful and i realized..i could have gone in sweats and he wouldn't have thought i looked any different. i mean i wouldn't have been all dressed up but he would still think i'm gorgeous. he said i was gorgeous about 10 different times in the last 24 hours. after prom we went to main event and i felt crappy, my stomach was cramping, my hair was falling down, i was tired; but he just looked at me and made me feel like the most beautiful person around. around 4 this morning i started taking my hair down and it looked ridiculous. but he thought i looked pretty [: and i fell asleep in his arms this morning. and i fell asleep with the feeling like..nothing can go wrong. i have the perfect guy. right here in my arms..that's what i realized today. that i love CONNER AUSTIN DAVIS. and he's the most amazing best friend and boyfriend i could ask for. <3

we are all in this together.

well let's try this again. My day went on forever. thats about it.

basically. conner is amazingg. thats all i need to say, i love him so muchh. more than he can imagine. he is the reason my heart beats the way it beats..he is my best friend. i can't wait to see him tomoro. im so ready for his prom.