i need you noww <3.

sour patch kids are the greatestttt [:
especially the little green ones. ;]

ready for fridayy. last game! seniors 2010.

night kidsss.

do i turn you on at all when i kiss you baby

goshh. long terrible day.
im so readyyyy to be out of high school.
OUTTTT i tell you.
senior night on friday.
yippee freaking skippee.

goodnight world.

psychobabble<33.

so first week of school has come and gone.
somewhat eventful. also kinda not. haha

first football game was closeeeee.
but this week were gonna blow seagoville outta the water [:

i have college class in the morning at 8.
i should prolly go to bed.. haha ohh well :]

sweetdreamss<33.

peace out.

omg.
i cant move.
drill team is kicking my butt.
all the work outs..
gahh.
bed.
<3

i love your love the most.

ryannes over right now. were watching knowing. drill team starts tomoro. my summer is overrrrrrr. lol thats all i really have to say..oh except that kelsie is over with my sister and she made me glasses out of pipe cleaners. bahaha. [:

there's a place off ocean avenue where I used to sit and talk with you.

This week went by super fast, yet everyday went by slow. haha.
I worked Friday, Saturday, and Sunday this past week. I taught a dance this week, chilled with one of my best friends, I had senior pictures taken [I've never felt like a model, lol but I sure did on Wednesday!] I also went to the lake with my sister, her two friends, my other sister, her two friends, my boyfriend, my other best friend and his girlfriend. It was awesome. I could live without the sunburn, but hey, it was still fun! When we got back from the lake I just slept. I slept until almost 1, and then didn't do much...watched tv, and a movie, then came home and went to bed. haha, I was still kinda tired yesterday. But I think I'm ok now. [: I'm just a little bored from working..haha I Kissed a Girl is on..haven't heard that in awhile..oh well. guess I'll just play some games on facebook. keep me occupied maybe?? Bye guys!

just another stroll in the park.

• I randomly will start dancing if music is playing. It doesn't matter what type of music.
• I have a texting problem..I'm always texting lol.
• I am a pretty intelligent person, I just don't always use my common sense.
• I work at Nirvana Tan in Forney.
• I drive a little green bug that smells like crayons.
• I could live off of cold pizza and dr. pepper.
• I have a bad habit of saying what I'm thinking..I don't think it through before I say it.
• I enjoy reading, good books, not books for school.
• I look around when I get nervous, avoiding eye contact.
• I have been dancing for 15, almost 16 years.
• I have a few close friends. Stick us in a room together, you have the show F.R.I.E.N.D.S [:
• I will wave at almost anybody on the street, idk..it's a weird thing. I'm just friendly.
• I despiseeeee crickets. That is my only fear. I can have spiders crawling on me and flick them off, but if there's a cricket within 5 feet of me, I scream like a little girl.
• I wanna be a teacher/athletic trainer in the future. Teach geometry. I enjoy it.
• I will be 18 this year! HECK YEAHH.
• I run with a strange crowd, but I fit in just fine [:
• I never say the right thing.
• I'm good at giving advice, horrible at following it.
• I can cry over almost anything,
• I live in this small country town, I wear my boots with pride.
• I cuss like a sailor, but you would never know that.
• Far Away by Nickelback is without a doubt my favorite song in the world.

Never judge someone before you get to know them. It bites you in the butt in the end if you do.

on the road again.

well tomro morning i leave for san antonio.
friday:
-san marcos outlet mall
-hard rock cafe

saturday:
-fiesta texas
-definately missing conners graduation.. :/
-dinner

sunday:
-seaworld
-magic time machine
-definately missing conner's graduation party && our six months. :/ :/

monday:
-come home
-go to work.


blahh. it will be fun tho. be back soon [: love you conner.

to conner [:

babeee.
i love you so much. you're amazinggg. you don't even know. you are a blessing to me, i will see you soon. have a great and fantastic graduation. <3.
love you baby.
sam. [:

im so addicted to all the things you do.

laying on the couch watching pearl harbor. im missing my boyfriend so muchhh. at least summer is almost here [: thankk goodness. my summer is gonna disappear so fast though, right into senior year.
this next week i have an interview to be an ambassador for quintana photography. then friday to monday ill be in san antonio. the next thursday ill be at chelseys lake house,
shortly after:
i have conners bday to prepare for, then goddard, my pal retreat at the end of july and spending what time i got with that boy <3.
then august is here..
i have practice almost everyyday in august..then school is here. summer will be gone. im gonna live up every minute i got, do what i can [: good night. last full day of school tomro.

this beat is sick.

ughh. i feel so sick.
i have felt sick all day.
terrrrrible. not good. so i stayed home. then i had to get readdy for graduation tonight, which was long. and i still felt bad :/
blehh. and i miss conner reallly really bad. i hope i see him saturday. or sooner [:
i love you conner <3. alot more than you know

i hate jealousy.

i hate when i get jealous.
especially over things that dont matter anymore.
i just think of old things..and it i feel hurt.
not bc anyone did anything to me..
just bc thats how lame i get over stupid, nonexistent things.
ughh i wish after a certain amount of time..
and changes in ppl..
that certain writings on the internet could disappear.
gahh. i hate that i let this bother me when it shouldnt.
im so stupid. ughhh.
im gonna try and get some sleep..maybe..

good night.

theres a stirring deep within me.

so boys are just geniuses and think theyre soo funny. i forgot to log off my facebook from when i was at conner's earlier..so when i get home. he is on my facebook.

AND TO ALL THOSE THAT DIDNT KNOW YOU COULD BE ON FBOOK ON TWO DIFFERENT COMPUTERS...YOU'RE WRONGG.

because i argued with him and my friends bc he was instant messaging them and so was i.my friends were veryy confused.
i have to work tomro and friday. then project saturday morning and banquet that night [: conner's senior service at church sunday..hopefully i dont cry. im gonna try not to..the thought of him leaving me and going to college scares me. ill miss him too much :/ i love you conner. thanks for an AMAZiNG night tonight. cant wait til saturday [:

i cant help falling in love with you.

so i was taking a survey earlier and i got asked the question. What did you realize today?
and i said that i am completely in love with this boy.
Now it's not that i didn't know i love him, because i do love him sooooo much, but after spending a whole day getting ready for his prom trying my best to look beautiful and i realized..i could have gone in sweats and he wouldn't have thought i looked any different. i mean i wouldn't have been all dressed up but he would still think i'm gorgeous. he said i was gorgeous about 10 different times in the last 24 hours. after prom we went to main event and i felt crappy, my stomach was cramping, my hair was falling down, i was tired; but he just looked at me and made me feel like the most beautiful person around. around 4 this morning i started taking my hair down and it looked ridiculous. but he thought i looked pretty [: and i fell asleep in his arms this morning. and i fell asleep with the feeling like..nothing can go wrong. i have the perfect guy. right here in my arms..that's what i realized today. that i love CONNER AUSTIN DAVIS. and he's the most amazing best friend and boyfriend i could ask for. <3

we are all in this together.

well let's try this again. My day went on forever. thats about it.

basically. conner is amazingg. thats all i need to say, i love him so muchh. more than he can imagine. he is the reason my heart beats the way it beats..he is my best friend. i can't wait to see him tomoro. im so ready for his prom.

back it up. you got it you got it.

no can be as lucky as me..no one. i have conner davis in my life which makes everything better. i swear he makes the sun shine brighter, all for me. so girls, you best back up because if you even think about messin with my man..no bueno for you. [: haha he surprises me everyday with something new. he's adorable and dorkish but its all a part of the reason why i love him so muchh. <3 i love you conner.

more than i can spare right now.

Life has been insanely busy. There's not enough hours in the day. I have one more show today. Then I am going to tutor a 6th grader in math TAKS, which is next week. Then I leave for San Antonio Friday, so I can't go see Conner's important game.. :/ it's the tiebreaker for their district. They're tied for 2nd place. [: I'm so proud of him. I got to see him yesterday after show [: I hadn't seen him since Sunday, so I have freakin missed him. We (me, Conner, mom, Kirk, Ashleigh, Emily, and Danielle Davis) all went to Chili's. Then he had to leave.. He had to take me to get my car, so we just sat in the parking lot i was just letting him hold me in his arms because I don't think I will get to see him until his prom on May 9. :/ This week has been hard, I don't know how I will make it through two.. when he goes to school it's going to be so hard on me.. I don't know how I'm gonna make it, but I will. It's only a year until I graduate. Then I will be out of this small of Forney and living my life. No more getting up early for school, no more drill team, no more not seeing Conner. Well I have to finish a math project so I can go back to the school for the last show. [: peace.

That's why fireflies flash.

i'd come for you..no one but you <3.

uhh. my weekend was pretty jam packedd

friday: other than school, and the worst back pains everrr, i had work and i went to conner's baseball game. they won! 3-2. then we went to his house. we made some brownies and watched twilight with his parents. then i had to come home.
saturday: conner left for a&m. i had chynna's slice of life fundraiser. i had to dance. not so great on my backk. then i went to my dad's we just kinda chilled all night. i love chilling with my dad. [:
sunday: went to sunday school/church. turned in my application for a camp counseler. then i drove to mesquite for dance practice from 1-3. it went well. then i drove BACK out to irving. watched golf/nascar with dad while everyone napped. then me and sister went to fusion [church thing] from 6-7:30. lol i had a pretty mean impersonation of this character from princess bride " marriageee. marriagee. is what has brought us here. two-day. " lol. i played human tic tac toe with josh hailey and katy..of course me and katy were the board lol. then i came home. and talked to conner tonight. i miss him. alot :/

uhhh school tomoro. but i might get to see conner if his parents let him come see me.. i hope soooo!!!!!! fixin to hit the sheets. practice is gonna get intense from here on out! spring show. less than 3 weeks to opening night. :/ crossing my fingers. on that and getting selected as a camp counseler. [:

you can rest easy tonight.

ughh. im tiredd. im supposed to finish decorating the locker room in the morning..at 7. that means i probably should go to bed.. ehh im watching twilight. maybe later [: boyfriend doesn't feel good :/

beneath the milky twilight.

stupid chick at walmart.. dude i was up at walmart at 11:15 waiting for twilight and at 11:45 some random chick started some crap and said we cut! ughhhhhh. im pissed because we got sent to the back of the line. but its cool my friend bought me one [: gooo timmy [: well im watching twilight now.

good night

you take the breath right out of me.

Hmm. I've been at my dads since saturday, i took the SAT then went to my dad's. I went to conner's house and played games with his family [: like splat! and nerts. On Sunday, Conner and I went to church, i sat in on his high school chours group. man i love hearing him sing. Then i came home. dad's mom and step dad came in. Then dad's brother and wife came in, and so did their daughter and her husband and their little one year old. then conner came too. we all went to red lobster. [: hmm then monday i went to his parents house and watched 24, and made yummy chocolate chip cookies. then yesterday we watched some of my old dance stuff. he laughed..even after i told him not to. [: then he came over this morning before i left. i reallyyyy do love this guy [: i thank god that he sent him my way everyday. <3. Dinner with family tonight at cheddar's.

hello seattle.

i went to conner's baseball game tonight [: it kinda rained a little bit but it felt amazing outside. he didn't play any but he looked soo cute in his uniform lol. i did get to see him afterwards. [: we went to taco bell, then back up to the school to drop him off. :/ it took me like 30 minutes to tell him goodbye..it sucked. but i maybe i get see him later this week [; i hope so. it's so hot in my room, the air conditioning is broken. :/ so i'm like sweating bad.

i swear that you don't have to go..

My first day out in the sun all year. It felt amazinggg.
Well today I drove out to Irving to go to church with family and Conner <3. Then we went to Chili's and just sat outside and tanned. [: Then he came over..Gahh that boy can make my brain go crazyyy just when he touches me. So when he's sitting there rubbing my neck and back, he kept giving me cold chills and making me jump. [: But I'd take that anyday. I miss him so muchh. It's hard for me to tell him goodbye. Everytime he goes to leave I kiss him, and then he kisses me, which makes me want to kiss him again..well you see where it gets hard for him to leave. lol. What I would give to live in Irving. To fall asleep in his arms..

He's going away to college this fall. That kinda scares me..But honestlyy...I think we can make it. I love him so much I don't see why it wouldn't work. Oh well I just know I'm living here and now instead of then and there. Well I'm probably going to bed early. SAT prep class at 730. Take the SAT Saturday at Mesquite High School.

im dying inside.

day=terrible.
endofstory.

cut my life into pieces. this is my last resort.

Friday. [: Best day of the week in my opinion. School is easy. I mean in my first period class all we did was hang sheets up all over Melillo's room for TAKS testing. It was fun stuff right there. Started our Broadway unit in dance. Had my anciet history spanish person from TVCC talkin to my class. Researched in the library and played minesweeper and watched a video saying 'you can't cure stupid' Didn't do anything in physics. Had to use some brain power in Pre-Cal and then had practice today, but it was kinda chilled. That was good. I went home. Packed for mini camp and clothes to go to my dad's tomorrow. Came over to Chilton's house. Her, Anthony, and me were working on our history project..well really Anthony just brought the pizza so he could be in our group lol. But Chilton and me just told him to go home, he was just taking up space that we could've been using lol. We got 3 pages of our scrapbook done, not to bad. We also made some cd's for each other. It was awesome she loved all my songs, and I loved hers; but we had never heard of the music the other one was playing [: So I got new music tonight that I'm listening to. Then her mommy came in and we just laughed for a little bit. Haha. Well I gotta get up early. I have to be at the school at 8, but Chilton and me wanna go grab some donuts for breakfast. Yummmmmy. [: Sweet Dreams.

last chance for one last dance.

Can't sleep. Tomorrow's Wednesday. The weeks half over [: thank goodness. Mini camp this weekend, 9-12. Then I'm going to my dad's, maybe to see Conner play some baseball. I don't know yet. Blehh. Well I'm gonna try and get some sleep. Good Night. <3

you're the direction i follow to get home.

BLEHHHH. laiweukwehjw9dufo9ueoewukjdfhjdfkjdfad... I hate being sick. I have been sick for like two weeks, I was just getting over it..and here it is again. Only worse. I swear I'm coughing up my lungs, it feels like my throat is bleeding or whatever else could be wrong with my throat. I'm sitting on the couch watching Schindler's List with my mom, talk about depressing. :/ Competition Saturday. All day. But hopefully Conner is coming [: I miss him. Well I gotta get back to coughing miserably. Good Night.

will you be my only love.

I'm not looking forward to practice tomorrow. 10-5:30??? I'm gonna die.
Well this weekend has been good. Went to Conner's friday after the basketball game, watched Mamma Mia with his parents, then...ok here comes my story...took the wrong highway, got stuck behind some guy throwin up out his window, ALL OVER MY WINDSHEILD, speeding home, cop gets on the highway while I'm going almost 90, slam on my brakes, make it home 45 minutes after I was supposed to be home. Woke up Saturday went on school field trip to the museums. That was fun, came back had the school dance. [: Then I came home and got sickk. Blehh. Today. Didn't do much. I'm watching Thumbelina right now. [: I feel like such a kid haha.

my life would suck without you.

I had one of the best weekends of my life. [: Well minus the performing on Saturday at the high school for BBDC's Winter Recital. We did good, it was just long and boring. Friday was fun. Well again, minus school. Shelby and me went to pick out my prom dress, which I found. Ross came over and my mom, him and me played the Outdoor Challenge on the Wii. Hystarical. No words. Then Saturday I went to buy my prom dress. Then I came home and Conner came to see me [: We just sat on the couch and watched a few movies, that's all I really needed. Just to lay in his arms, it takes my breath away. Then I had that performance thing. Then Conner drove me out to my dad's house. We watched some James Bond movie my dad had on. Today he took me to church this morning, and then I had a baby shower, I could've done without that this weekend too. Then I chilled with dad for awhile. Conner came back over, then I had to go home :/ Then I freaking wrote my naked/nude/pornography essay. LAME SAUCE! I could DEFINATELY done without the nakedness. Haha. Well I'm going to bed. I have to take a math test in the morning. Peace.

shushh girl, shut your lips, do the helen keller and talk with your hips.

Thursday, finally. Lol this week has gone by so freaking fast lol maybe that's because I was home sick Monday & Tuesday. Haha. I'm watching The Invisible right now, waiting for dinner to finish cooking. I am tired too. I just folded three loads of laundry. Tomorrow is my boyfriend and I's 2 month anniversary <3 . I'm excited. [: I'm supposed to go shopping with Shelby for my prom dress tomorrow and then spend the with the best friend Friday too, at her new house [: We're gonna make bracelets, color pictures to hang in her room, unpack boxes, and watch movies, typical night with the bestie haha. Well dinner is ready, peace.

put your hands up in the air.

I'm sick. It totally sucks. I've been stuck in bed for two full days. It's so boring. I've been reading Twilight, which is good. [: I'm kinda tired actually. Dance showcase this weekend. Kinda not looking forward to it. At all. I'm addicted to this game on facebook. It's like a collection thing, and you have to steal them from other people. It's hard. I only need five more characters then I'm done with that collection. Well I'm gonna try and get some sleep actually. No one to talk to. Boyfriend just left to go play raquetball so.. bedtime for me. Nightt. <3.

my heart starts pumpin.

Ohhhhh Mannn. I hope it ices over. I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. At all. Tonight has been pretty good. Spent time with the family. I watched the Land Before Time like I was a little kid again, helped sister with spanish paper, youngest sister was being crafty. She made me a colorful paper crown [: and a bracelet. We had dinner, haha I had peanut butter and syrup (PB&S)-family thing. Haha then mom pulled out her Iphone, and we looked up Phineas & Ferb for my sister and we danced around in the kitchen with our crowns on. We're a weird family, I know.
Yeahhhh, 24 time. peace fools. <3

dont leave me tonight. ill wake up alone.

my weekend was quite boringg.
well friday was good. ehh minus the officers performance at the basketball game lol, me and shelbo went and saw the unborn. shoooot. that movie was jumppy//scaryy. she spent the night at my house. then we went to her house && ate some pizza:canadian bacon and pineapple. ehh then i went with my dad to my grandmas for the night. boring && annoying grandpa freakin going down his memory lane and trying to tell me how to live my life. gahhh. me and dad and grandma played cards, lol. were all nerds, i know. then we came home today. and ive been catchin up on some tv. i miss conner. i havent seen him all week. :/ well gotta go.
mom wants to see the report card. opppp. lol

tonight i've fallen && i can't get up.

Today was ok. Practice is getting somewhat better, I guess..Ughh I have to perform at a basketball game tomorrow night. It's going to be scary. We're not ready. I started looking for prom dresses tonight, didn't turn out very well. I only saw like 2 that I liked. :/ I baby sat my cousins after practice today, made $20. Now I'm home, on the couch talking to Conner on the phone [: My life has been kinda mellow, down low lately. Which is good. OOHHH I made a 84 on my term paper by the way. [: Well I'm probably going to bed soon. Night.

love remains the same.

This day isn't over and I feel so dead. I woke up at 4:30, so I could be at the high school by 5. The PALS were cooking food for the teacher breakfast at 8:30. It was pretty good. Then I had practice from 10-1. I was soooo tired, but I went. And the guy who was supposed to come choreograph for us, never showed up, so the practice was pretty pointless. Then I came home. Haha, then Anthony and Ryan stopped by in his new car...oh man. lol I thought it was a joke. Definately not. I feel bad, his truck was ohhh man. I loved his truck. Then I came inside and crashed on the couch. Just woke up [: lol. I'm hungryy. And speaking of food, my sister and I have decided to be vegetarians for the next week. Should be interesting. lol. Off to eat. Find out my term paper grade tomorrow. :/

im gonna love you with my life.

Back from my dad's. We were all sick. It sucked. We were coughing and sore throats. Blehhh. I feel like I'm coughing up a lung. :/ But I did take my Wii out there, my dad has never played..Goshh that was interesting! lol. I did get to see Conner last night. My dad and me were watching TV because we couldn't sleep with our cough until 3 in the morning. Gahh. Then step-mom woke me up for church. I was so noisy with my cough during the whole service. Came home, had soup, watched Prince Caspian, Conner came over for like 45 mins and I feel bad because I fell asleep with my head in his lap and didn't get to spend time with him at all. :/ And I don't know when I will see him next :[ soon I hope. Well I am hungry. Haven't had a lot of food today. Teacher Breakfast in the morning. I have to be at the school at freakin 5am to cook food. Poooo on a stickkkk. Later fools.

supermassive black hole.

I'm so soreee, and tired. I am going to my dad's today. Won't be home til tomorrow. Yeahh!! I get to drive an hour all the way across Dallas. Yippee Skippee. I do get to see Conner again though [: Well I have to pack up my stuff, text me.
--I'm totally dreading what I got on my term paper.. gahhh.

i'll leave you this lullaby tonight.

Sleeping in. Mhmmm. [: It was amazingggg. I don't have school at all today. Haha, my friends are texting me all pissed off that I'm not there. I am eating some cereal, Cookie Crisp. It's kinda grossss. I always eat Reese's Puffs, and we're out. :/ I'm sitting on the couch with the stuffed dog Conner gave me for Christmas with my dog Chewy sleeping between my legs, while watching Grey's Anatomy right now, it's one of my favorites. Ughh practice in a little less than 3 hours. Then I'm going out to eat at Chili's for Ashley's seventeenth birthday, Conner's coming [: I can't wait to see him. It's really hard having a boyfriend that doesn't live close, but oh man it is so worth it. Every second is worth it. All you girls out there worrying that you won't find a guy, stop looking. When you stop worrying, stop trying to worry if the old guy you were with will change his mind and maybe take you back if you wait around long enough, just stop. That's what I did, and God sent Conner my way [: And I couldn't be happier.

promise you wont forget me.

Exams are totally lame. I only had one this morning, and it was the first one so I had to wake up early :[ I went to talk to my mom before I left, and I asked Ryan for a sip of his Dr. Pepper because I was super thirsty, but it exploded EVERYWHERE! Then I had to clean all that up! Went to Chick-Fil-A to get some chicken minis, my favorite. Then I came home. I was fixing to fall asleep again, but saved by the phone ringing. Only to find out it's my sister wanting me to go pick her up from school. I go pick her up, come home, phone rings again 30 minutes later. It's Anthony. Greatttt. 'come pick me up' No please, or can you, or could you. Simply, come pick me up. So by this point I am totally pissed. I get into my practice clothes, go and pick him up and take him home. I'm at the school at 1:20 so i decided to take my dance exam so I don't have to get up early tomorrow. Then I had officer practice for drill team from like 2-5:30. I had team practice yesterday and completely bruised up my knees, So they hurt to start with and the whole dance we were on our knees :/ That dance is 2:22 long, and it's fast. I have really bad asthma, so after we did the dance once, I was laying on the floor hyperventilating. Not so good. I was laying there for awhile before my director even noticed. That feeling always scares me, like I could die any second from not breathing. Good thing I got my inhaler [: I've been chilling at home watching movies like Pocahontas and now Speed & talking to Conner. He's so amazing for me. I don't know what I did to deserve him. Well off to make plans for tomorrow with no school, well that is until practice starts. Gayyyyy. Text me.