i swear that you don't have to go..

My first day out in the sun all year. It felt amazinggg.
Well today I drove out to Irving to go to church with family and Conner <3. Then we went to Chili's and just sat outside and tanned. [: Then he came over..Gahh that boy can make my brain go crazyyy just when he touches me. So when he's sitting there rubbing my neck and back, he kept giving me cold chills and making me jump. [: But I'd take that anyday. I miss him so muchh. It's hard for me to tell him goodbye. Everytime he goes to leave I kiss him, and then he kisses me, which makes me want to kiss him again..well you see where it gets hard for him to leave. lol. What I would give to live in Irving. To fall asleep in his arms..

He's going away to college this fall. That kinda scares me..But honestlyy...I think we can make it. I love him so much I don't see why it wouldn't work. Oh well I just know I'm living here and now instead of then and there. Well I'm probably going to bed early. SAT prep class at 730. Take the SAT Saturday at Mesquite High School.